Personal: A Hello From Me

Long time, no blog!

It’s been far too long since I since down at my laptop and tapped out a blog post. I’ve hardly picked up my camera in weeks. I’ve even been logged out of Twitter on my phone due to ‘inactivity.’ All in all, not quite the productive start to the year I was hoping for.

 photo 2016-12-02 12.08.03_zps2chmqmpb.jpg photo 2016-12-02 11.50.30_zpsqtlnvbip.jpgI probably made it clear in my last post just how tired i was, how run down I felt. At the time I was balancing work, study, blogging, a rammed social calendar and wedding planning, on top of personal circumstances that were far from pleasant. I had an email inbox that was rapidly expanding, a to-do list that was getting to be taller than I was (no mean feat, even with me being vertically challenged!). My skin was betraying just how exhausted I was, and my immune system gave way to a nasty virus in the week before Christmas.

I spent Christmas trying to solider on through, alcohol making me want to throw up, falling asleep at every opportunity and not even feeling like enjoying my food. Typically the 27th dawned and I felt an awful lot better – and luckily made a good dent in the leftovers. Using pigs in blankets as dipping implements for a boiled egg was the best idea I’d had throughout all of 2016…

 photo 2016-12-27 11.59.52_zpsyinsztih.jpg photo 2016-11-12 13.59.15_zpsqwcb2t3i.jpgA few cold countryside walks, a couple of Terry’s Chocolate Oranges (because vitamins…?!) and things were looking up. I managed to get a decent chunk of studying done. Planned out the first few months of blog posts for 2017. And then the aforementioned personal circumstances came back and hit hard. Just a few short minutes into the year, my beloved Granddad peacefully passed away. It’s not something I’ve really mentioned on here, but he’d been suffering from severe Alzheimer’s for many, many years and whilst his passing is sad, I’m relieved he’s finally free – I’m sure he’s having a pint and chuckle at us all right now!

Feeling under the weather and dealing with grief – not to mention the fact that W then went to South America for the month – meant I just needed to continue to take a break. Despite myself promising I’d never put pressure on myself to blog, that’s exactly what I was doing for much of 2016. I hate not fulfilling my posting schedule, I hate being chased to reply to an email.

 photo 2016-12-27 17.01.57_zpsbhea1wxt.jpg photo 2016-12-27 16.59.28_zpsquqpo0fy.jpg photo 2016-12-27 16.21.14_zpsldgejd2c.jpg photo 2016-12-27 16.19.27_zpsyoegimcb.jpgThis year I’m going to try and take some of the pressure off. I’ve shifted around my posting schedule to reduce the number of posts each month. I’ve set an auto-reply to give PRs a warning that I may not reply immediately. I’m going to try and meet new bloggers, make coffee dates with those I’ve been meaning to catch up with for months. I’m going to head out for meals and not photograph them (well, maybe). I’ll bake for the enjoyment and not for the Instagram likes. I’ll make time for me, make plans for me and not ‘for the blog.’ I love blogging, I’m sticking around for a while. But I also like living, and my blog doesn’t entirely define my life. Here’s to 2017 being the year I live for me.

How has the start of the year been for you?

  • Sorry to hear about your grandfather. We all definitely need a break from blogging from time to time – I hate feeling guilty for not staying on top of blog content and have to remind myself that it’s ok for it to sometimes take a backseat when real life happens. x

  • Can totally relate, I think it’s good to have a bit of a break sometimes, especially if you have a lot going on. Sometimes social media can add to that overwhelming feeling, especially if you have to pretend that you’re doing great even when you’re in a bit of a lull. I find my writing tends to be better when I’m not feeling so emotionally/physically drained as well.

    Hopefully things get better for you and you feel re-energised again πŸ™‚

    – Lubna | The Digital Review

  • I totally agree with you on this! While I want to be ambitious with the blog, living an actual life will always come first. I hope the pressure settles and you start to feel a whole lot better soon! πŸ™‚
    Jennifer x
    Ginevrella | Lifestyle Blog

  • Fernanda

    I’m sorry to hear about your grandad. My grandma passed away on New Year’s day 6 years ago and every years it feels like it’s happening again a little bit. But with each passing year, it feels like that a little bit less. πŸ™‚ I hope you and you’re family are doing well.
    It’s hard not to put pressure on yourself with the blog. I think maybe we feel it’s like the one thing that can be under out control so we should be doing it consistently and when we don’t we feel like we’ve let ourselves down? The thing is, much like you, I’ve run myself into the ground trying to do too much at once and we just need to realize we need to cut ourselves a bit o slack, too!

    We would never put that kind of pressure on someone else we love, how about we love ourselves a little bit more, too? :))

  • I’m so sorry to hear about your grandad, I’m glad it was peaceful β™₯ I think taking the pressure off helps enormously when things get too much and I hope you’re feeling less frazzled now you’ve decided to step back a bit. Sending lots of love and I hope you have a wonderful 2017! xx